Tuesday, September 22, 2009

8 days

Yup... 8 days...

I am not quite sure what to think about that. People keep asking me, "Are you excited?" I am. But I am also nervous. I am not nervous about the trip or fearful of what is going to happen, I am just nervous about what God is going to show us.

To be honest I don't feel ready, but I don't know if I ever will. I don't think anyone can be ready to see the face of God. I truly believe that, that is what is going to happen during my 2 weeks in Lesotho. I just don't know when He will show up. Will it be in the face of the children? Will it be in the servant hands of the care takers? Will it be in our team? Will it be in those we meet in the villages?

I think the answer is YES!

I sat down today with our new Pastor and worship leader to plan our commissioning for Sunday's worship service. He asked a lot of great questions that I wasn't prepared to answer. Part of my role in the team is leading devotions and group prayer time. I have been trying to focus for months know and dream about what God wants to share...I have nothing! Every time I sit down and focus, I am blank. I have this feeling that when we get there, God is going to speak and any plan I had will get in the way. Some might think of that as procrastination, but trust me it is not. I would love to have a plan to go by. I am not to comfortable with the unknown. But one thing I have already learned is, in Africa, there is a lot of unknowns.

Please be in prayer for the team. My best friend looked at me today and said, "God is going to do something huge, because Satan is fighting hard." Because of safety reasons, our living conditions have changed and are not really nailed down yet. Also personally I have be VERY overwhelmed in getting ready. My computer has been having major issues (which I was suppose to bring with me) and I woke up yesterday with a bad head cold. I am tired and weak and I think that is where God wants me to be.

There has been one song that has been in my heart and mind the past few weeks. It is Hosanna by Brooke Fraiser. I believe the lyrics in the bridge of the song are exactly what God is going to do to me in Africa.

"Heal my heart and make it clean.
Open up my eyes to the things unseen.
Show me how to love like You have loved me.
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause.
As I walk from Earth into eternity."

8 days...


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Anonymous said...

OH, that was me in the above....still getting GOOSEBUMPS! holly h.